Dorm room done and decorated, almost and Sweating to success.

Dorm room done and decorated, almost and Sweating to success.


I spent my first night back in my dorm room last night. When I arrived in my room after class yesterday, I was greeted by big full boxes and stacks of full plastic bags. I had a lot of unpacking and decorating to do. I started working on my room at around 3:30pm yesterday and finished at about 10:00pm. I say finished, however it is not quite done yet. I still have quite a bit of posters to hang around my side of the room. The room still feels empty if I don't have my personal touches painted on the walls. I won't feel like it's "My room" until I get it all done. Once I complete it, I plan on taking some photos of my room for everyone's viewing pleasure! So look for that coming soon! :)


School has been pretty busy the last couple of days. Today was only the fifth day, but I have had so much homework to do in those last five days. There should be a law against giving students homework the first week back to school! In fact, tonight's blog will be cut a little short due to World History homework! But I wanted to update and let you guys know what is going on! Hopefully I will get to post a longer blog and award my blog awards to the lucky 15 in the next few days.


My World History class has been the hardest class I have had yet. It's not that it is difficult. It is the professor has a different way of teaching. He doesn't just make us buy a big heavy text book and make us take notes. OHHH NOOO. That would be WAYYY too easy right! At least I think so. Actually in reality his teaching style is probably the easiest one out there. We read from the History book at home, and then all we do in class is discuss what we read. He calls on us at random and we are to explain to him what we thought the reading meant and give the readings importance. Doesn't sound hard at all, right? It is difficult to me because I don't like being called on. When I am called on in class and expected to give a correct answer...I feel like the WHOLE WORLD is just staring at me. I begin to feel very uncomfortable. I begin to feel like they are staring at me because of my weight, and not because they are all expecting an answer to the professors question. I start to feel very awkward in my own skin. I begin to sweat and sudder. I have determined it is soley because of my weight. When people stare at me like that, it automactically triggers in my brain that they are looking at me with disgust because of the way I look. That's how I felt the first day of World History. However, Monday was different. I had thought it over, and I informed myself that the only reason I felt like that the first day was because of my lack of confidence in myself and the way I look. The first day he had called on me. I didn't know what to say. My palms were sweaty and I could feel the stare of what seemed like everyone in the room. Monday like I said was different though. This Monday I walked into that classroom actually hoping he would call on me. Hoping he would single me out for an answer. But he didn't, but next time he does...I will be READY! Tomorrow I have World History, before I go to bed tonight I need to read from my book, and be completely ready to take on a question.


Sadly, I have not yet been back to the Wellness Center. However, I will be going to workout there tomorrow night. My next blog post I will fill you in on that, and it will be good. :) I'm eating right though, following my calories to a T I am very happy to report! I need to find a location to weight in at. I think I can at the health clinic here in town, but I want to check with them to make sure it's alright, which I will do very soon.


Thank you to everyone who supports me. Your kind and supportive comments really give me that extra boost I need to stay focused. You don't know how much that means to me.




REMEMBER: TOUGH COOKIES DON'T CRUMBLE



-Amber


Some BEFORE and "IN PROGRESS PICTURES"


Around my heaviest.


Mom, Courtney, and me. All of us at our heaviest. Before I left for college last year.


My Graduation party (2008). I wasn't so happy on that day. I felt so ugly in my gown.


Fat face graduation day.


In progress, SUMMER!


Sissy and me in progress.


In progress, SUMMER!


Family In Progress! Before I left this summer!