Thursday, January 14, 2010

Wellness class and Boy am I sore.

Wellness class and Boy am I sore.

So today was the first workout in my wellness and fitness concepts class. I'm very pleased to announce that it was a GREAT work out. All kinds of different activities! Jumping Jacks, Push-ups (GUY ONES!), Running, Jogging in place, Leg lifts, and many more. It was kinda of weird doing these exercises around my entire class of around 35 or 40. But, I felt better as I told myself "They are NOT looking at me...they are exercising too! Calm down. No one is laughing." It was good. However, My Professor didn't have time to weigh us all today...or do the body fat percentages....that I thought we were suppose to do I have no idea when we will be doing that. Since I didn't get to weigh in class, I'm going to weigh sometime this weekend while I'm at home. I will update with that as soon as possible.


Monday and Tuesday night I worked out on the treadmill that is down stairs in the lobby of my dorm. I got a good work out both nights. However, I think I pushed it a little too hard. I could only do 30 minutes both nights...because of sharp chest pains. I think I was just going too fast or something. I'm fine now. I don't think it was anything serious. Then today...well that workout in class. It's been a while since I actually put a huge effort into working out...and I SURE do feel it. I love the feeling though. It may sound weird makes me feel good to know I worked it...and I'm sore for GOOD reason! It's my Iron Clad Decision to lose this weight. It makes me feel good about the road to come. It's going to be amazing.

Oh, and Calories. No problem.
I'm feeling good about this. This is IT.

"Reach toward your goals,
Jump towards your goals,
Walk towards your goals,
Run towards your goals,
You're sure to burn those calories!"


Sunday, January 10, 2010

New Motivation for DECISION 2010 and Turning 20 years old

New Motivation for DECISION 2010 and Turning 20 years old

Hello blogger world, it's been a while.

I would be a liar if I said I haven't struggled. It's been a whopping 5 months since my last blog update, and I'm being honest with myself. I haven't lost a pound since. Actually I have most likely gained a few. Last time I weighed I weighed exactly 274. What my dad actually weighs now. I want to first say that I am so proud of my daddy. He has come a long way and I know he is going to continue to jump towards his ultimate goal. Second, I need to CATCH up to everyone in my family. I am now the heaviest in my little family of four. I could have been almost to my goal by now. But I guess I can't sit and talk about the "I could of's" and the "I should of's." What is important to me now is stopping this war with myself.

I have been overweight since third grade. I remember one particular incident in the third grade where we were making those identification cards in case we were ever abducted. I remember weighing in at 90 pounds. 90 pounds isn't a lot at all, but for me a third grader it was the road to obesity. I remember some boys getting a look at my weight and laughing at me because of it. I can't begin to explain the amount of pain being overweight has caused me.

For part of my childhood and for all of my teenage years I have been my own worst enemy. I'm tired of defeating myself before I even get started. On January 4th 2010 I turned 20 years old. This is a wake up call. I want my time to shine. I want to feel beautiful. I have been heavy for WAY to LONG. I'm DONE. This time I WILL make it happen. I refuse to allow the rest of my life, now adult life, to be in the devastating company of morbid obesity.

For starters, I have enrolled into a Wellness and Fitness Concepts class. We will engage in physical activities every Wednesday. We will need workout clothes on those days. This first Wednesday we will be weighed and our fitness levels will be thoroughly tested. My professor will also be measuring body fat percentages and measuring what are individual heart rates need to be while engaging in cardio exercises for optimal weight loss results. Wednesday my workouts are taken care of. The other six days are going to be filled with exercise. Some sort of physical activity whether it's walking, hitting the gym, or even just playing some sort of sport or game. I have to get up and move. Another thing is my calorie limit. Calories are so hard to watch in college. I wish the food on campus had calorie counts. But I have decided to beat this calorie uncertainty by eating at the school cafeteria, which will allow me more options to make good choices. Instead of eating at the school grill, which is basically like fast food. Decision 2010 will also include cutting pop almost completely. I have never been much of a pop drinker. But here lately it seems like it's all I want to drink....especially coke. I never knew how much I liked coke. I say cutting it out "almost" completely because I have to remember I can still have some coke if I want it every now and then. My dad brought up a good strategy for that very thing. Get a value sized coke from just about any fast food restaurant (value sized is usually a dollar, and usually is the smallest size available - most likely an 8oz cup) and ask them for plenty of ice. That way you get that wonderful coke taste for about 60 calories or so.

I have set a weight loss goal of 100 pounds by the end of 2010. I think that is a fair goal. If I lose more, GREAT, but I think it is important for me right now to set a goal that doesn't feel overwhelming or unreachable. Tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of my life. The gym will be back in my schedule and maintaining my calories will be a must. I want to have the dramatic before, in progress, and after photos. I want to hear that four word wonderful question that mean so much "Have you lost weight?" I want to feel in shape and comfortable in my own skin. I want to look AMAZING. I want to make my family proud, but most of all I want to make myself proud. It's up to me. I CAN change my body. I CAN have the body I have always wanted. It's time to make that happen. No more time will be wasted.