My first year at college was like high school all over again. I didn't talk to very many people. I closed myself off from my room mates. I didn't try to make friends. I didn't go to many social events. Why do I do this to myself? I know I can make friends. I know I can lose weight. I know I can have confidence. I know all of this. My first year at college had one slight difference from high school. The determination to lose weight. I want to lose my weight more than anything in this world. I beat the old "Freshmen 15" saying. I lost 60 pounds, even with all the tempting food that surrounded me everyday at the cafeteria. I didn't have home cooked meals and that made it a lot more difficult. No nutrition facts. I would have to make an educated guess on how many calories was in everything that I was consuming. It wasn't always easy. Some days I would do perfect. Some days I would seriously slack in the food and the exercise departments.
I can't and won't do this to myself again. Now is the time to get more serious than I ever have been. I want to really kick it up. Really challenge myself to do the best I can. I need to remix the mix tapes in my head as my daddy would say. His Day 327 really hit me hard. I teared up while reading it, because it really hit home. The words in his old mix tape are exactly what is playing in my head over and over again every time I try to push harder. My mix tapes are seriously working against me. It is a constant struggle for me to stay in the right mind set. The harder I try the more my head tells me I can't do this. My attitude needs to seriously change. My motivation has increased a lot since being home this summer with my family. I really need that boost of motivation. That boost of support. Over the summer I lost 20 pounds. It wasn't the number I was looking for, but I won't let it get me down because I know I can do better than that. This second year of college gives me a feeling of "I can do this." I will stay consistent. Consistency is my biggest problem. I need to stay consistent in my efforts. I can't do great one day and then slack off the next. Yeah, I have lost weight like this. But, I could have lost a lot more by now. Consistency is really going to amp up my results, and I am excited to take it to the next level of success. I have the support of my family. They are behind me all the way. I know it is difficult not being with them psychically, but knowing that they are cheering for me everyday makes me want to hold on and be strong for them. I'm ready to get a tight grip on this journey and push it faster in the direction I know it's going.
I believe this blog is going to help me. I have never really been good at keeping a daily journal or anything of the sort. But I am going to try and update this when I have the time between class, homework, part-time job, and working out. I'm excited to share journey with all of you. My goal weight for right now is 160. Once I get there then I will decide if I want to go smaller. Like my dad says "Whatever feels good." He is so right. I can't even express how proud of him I really am. I am so proud of my family. We are all going to be at our healthy weights in no time. The future is looking amazing. We will accomplish our goals, and feel better than ever.
I'm losing the weight for the sake of my life. A life full of things I have only imagined. The transformation has already started, and the future is bright. I'm dropping it like it's hot.
Grab a hold of your goals, and eliminate your doubts. Then you'll have the reality you've always wanted.