Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Motivation list and Meeting the same room mate all over again.

Motivation list and Meeting the same room mate all over again.

1. I want to feel better about myself, increasing my confidence and self worth.
2. I want to be able to go in to any store, and buy clothes I like, not just the ones that fit.
3. I want to wear clothes that are NOT in the plus size section.
4. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see.
5. I want to walk up stairs without feeling like I could just fall over and die.
6. I want absolutely no one to ever refer to me as "the big girl."
7. I want to not be embarrassed what so ever to get my picture taken.
8. I want to see my reflection in a full length mirror and feel great about what I see.
9. I want to be able to show off my legs, and not feel like they are huge.
10. I want to lie in bed, look down and see my toes without lifting my head off the pillow.
11. I want to have no worries about what clothes in my closet fit or not.
12. I want to look forward to summer, instead of winter, where I can hide under my big winter jackets.
13. I want to love shopping. The question won't be "Will this fit me?" It will be "Do I have the money to get this?"
14. I want a regular size towel to fit all the way around my body.
15. I want to be healthy and live longer. Not being at risk for the serious health problems obesity volunteers us for.
16. I want to wear a bikini, and feel amazing in it.
17. I want to wear more feminine clothes, rather than baggy t-shirts.
18. I want to actually wear a tight little black dress, and look drop dead gorgeous in it.
19. I want to enjoy getting dressed in the morning.
20. I want to be able to tell people how much I weigh, and not get depressed about it.

Last, but not least:
21. I want to see everyone's shocked reactions to my dramatic weight loss transformation. Their jaws will hit the floor.

I woke up, and didn't go to the doctor. Let me explain. I will be getting checked out as soon as I can. But, today wasn't a very good day for a doctor trip. Plus, I may be able to get a free check up at the local clinic in Weatherford, instead of paying for the costly doctors visit.

The morning was busy. Dad, Mom, and I went to my college campus bright and early. We finished moving the rest of my things into my room and finishing up the paper work that the school needed from me. I was excited to get to meet my new room mate. However, I was shocked to find out that my "new" room mate is actually the second room mate that I had last year right before school ended. So I have already lived with this girl. Her name is Katie, and I think we got off to a pretty good start last year. I met her at this room mate party my dorm hall was having. A party specifically for finding a room mate. All of the girls needing a room mate were to attend. Of course, I went because my first room mate had belled on me, and I needed to find other room mate to avoid being charged for a semi-private room. I remember going to the party it was around January of this year. I was nervous. When I got down to the main lobby for the event, I was relieved to see that all the girls looked just as nervous and shy as I was. They were all standing around just looking at each other. Some of the resident advisers were trying to break the ice, and get everyone to socialize with each other. It was the most awkward experience of my life. It was like we all were there to meet up with a blind date or something, like we were trying to "pick someone up." I remember standing their wishing that someone would come up and introduce themselves to me, and then we could hit it off and claim each other as our new room mates. I walked around and tried to make random conversation with the girls, but I just did NOT bring out my outgoing personality at ALL. I couldn't quite open up. The party was nearing a end, and most of the girls had already paired up. I was left standing their with no one. Until I seen a girl standing off to the far right corner of the room. It was Katie. I walked over, and as I walked I just told myself I was going to be confidence. I was going to be the dominant personality. I was going to be the one that comes over to someone and strikes up the conversation without waiting for someone to come to me. I did just that. I walked over to Katie, and just started randomly chatting with her. After a few minutes we were both laughing, because I had shared my thoughts about this being like an awkward dating situation. It was going well so I had asked her to be my room mate.

So for the next couple of months she became my room mate. We would watch movies together. We would talk about random things. She would offer to help me with my homework. For the most part, we get along. It's just we never really got to the point of "okay, you are my friend now and I am your friend." We never got to the point of "hey let's hang out outside of the dorm room."It's like we never really "clicked" as friends, you know?

I wasn't really expecting her to be my room mate again, but she is my room mate. So I am hoping that maybe this year will be different. Maybe we can become closer, and hang out like normal friends do. Instead of feeling like we have to be friends because we live together in the same small room. Who knows maybe I can get her to go walking with me and be my work out buddy. She isn't overweight, but who knows she might want to work out a little and that might bring us closer.

Tomorrow will be a school night. For those that have asked, I am currently majoring in Psychology, but will be switching my major to Special Education (more details on that in my next blog). I'm actually excited to get back to my school routine and exercising routines. I will most likely be at my dorm tomorrow night. I will try to write my blog before bed if I can get my ancient laptop to get a internet signal in my room.

Also, those that have asked about the quotes I use. I usually get them from various websites on google. I usually do a search for Inspirational quotes. I tweak them for my own personal view of them and to refer them to weight loss.

Here is poem I found tonight on the internet. I thought it was the total truth about only losing a pound! Don't ever be discouraged if you lose one pound or even less than one pound, because the way I look at it...that is just one more pound gone forever, getting you closer to your ultimate weight loss goal!

One Pound of Fat

Hello! Do you know me? If you don't, you should. I am

ONE POUND OF FAT, and I am the happiest pound of FAT that

you would ever want to meet! Want to know why? It's

because no one ever wants to lose me! After all, I am

only ONE POUND OF FAT. Just ONE POUND. Everyone wants

to lose 3 or 5 or 15 pounds, but never ONLY one. So, I

just stick around and happily keep you. Then I am free

to add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem

to notice... That is, until I have grown to 10, 20 or

even 30 pounds in weight... YES... it is fun being ONLY

ONE POUND OF FAT... left to do just as I please.
So, when you weigh in, go ahead... just keep on saying,

"Oh I only lost one pound." (As if that is so terrible.)

For you see, if you do this, you will encourage others

to hang around me because they will think that I am not

worth losing. And I LOVE being around you... your arms,

your legs, your chin, your hips, and every other part of

you. HAPPY DAYS! After all, I am ONLY ONE POUND OF


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  1. What a great poem! Thanks for sharing it. Hope that you and Katie have a great year together. Having a roommate like that must be one of the hardest things about college life. You have the right attitude and I know you will have a great year! Maybe by the end of the school year you will be able to see your toes when you lay down--that is one of mind too!

  2. I love the idea of a motivation list mainly because all the reasons are YOURS.
    not why you should for others or why a doctor says you need to etc.


  3. Absolutely fabulous! I needed that. (I only lost 1.6 pounds this week) Only one pound is good to lose. Thanks for that encouragment.

    Here's to you losing one pound... over and over and over again.

  4. Loved the poem
    I was going to write the other day but felt I shouldn't (don't know why) that I hoped you got the same room mate as last year
    Look it happened....How cool...At least you don't have to go thru that awkward stage..
    Oh and she already knows what side of the room who bed is on lol

  5. I bet some of that motivational list you can do right now. I know for me (I'm not sure when it happened) I started wearing clothes that actually fit me and it made a huge difference in how I felt about myself.

    I hope you and your old roommate can become real friends. It sounds like you did ok last year and maybe now that you're more open she will be too.

    Good poem!

  6. I love your list. I like # 14, which is something I hadn't remembered wanting until I read your list!

    I hope things work out really well with your roommate. I have a feeling it's going to be a great year for you.

    I love the poem. It is so true, it all adds up.

    Have a great week!

  7. We were so relieved when the numbers check on you BP and sugar were normal. Makes sense to wait a few days and save a couple of hundred bucks. That's just smart.
    I love your list sweety, you brought tears to my eyes darling. Some of them brought a smile to my face too! Lovely Amber girl!
    I really believe that you can develop a better understanding with and of Katy. Give it a good chance with an open mind and heart and you'll see a difference I'm sure.

    I love you Amber,
    Officially started missing you as soon as we left town last evening

  8. Nice list!! And a wonderful poem that we should all think about when we have those "only" thoughts :)

  9. Amber, I have an award for you at my blog. I know you just started, but I love your blog already!

  10. Just reached your blog of off Jo's! You're so smart to be focused on weight loss in college. Although I wasn't thin, I never really thought about my weight - studying and having fun reign supreme. I enjoyed your blog and look forward to your progress!

  11. What a great and thoughtful post. I came here via Jo's blog (I read your dad's too), and I definitely see why she put yours on.

    The list is wonderful. I think it's so important to remember why we want to take this journey.

    Good luck with the roommate. In college I found that, as nice as clicking with your roommate as a friend is, honestly just having peace and being good *roommates* is huge. There are plenty of friends to be made out there, so don't stress if she doesn't become one of your best ones. Sometimes people get along but just don't click: if it happens, don't worry about it.

  12. Hey Amber--I have given you a blog award. I hope it is the first of many! You have to come by my blog to collect it.

  13. Wowwwww baby, touching the heart strings with every word... Love your list and your poem and you have a wonderful post that will help you in every step you take until the end of your journey We are so very proud of you ambeee girl love you so much so very very much!! Give Katy a chance she may turn out to be someone very special your whole life!!

    Love you doll,
    and I missed you before we even left..(LOL)

  14. Well my blog award makes 3 in one day for you gorgeous girl

    come by and pick it up


  15. Love your list, great idea. I recently got #14, hotel towels are always smaller and when I was on vacation recently I showered and grabbed the towel and it fit - my boyfriend didnt quite understand the enormity of this but I am sure you do, lol! I am sure you will meet many of your goals very soon.

    WTG on all the blog awards too!

  16. Hey Amber!! I think it's kind of cool that you've already had this roommate before....no beginning awkwardness like it would be if you'd never met the girl....you've definitely got something to build on there...I'm sure you two will become great friends. :) Love that poem....only one pound IS important. I've been praying for 2 lbs gone this week...thanks for putting it all back into perspective for me. Any loss is one to be proud of...you're so awesome. :)

  17. If you and your roommate don't turn out to have the relationship you hope for, look for someone else--on your floor, in your dorm, in a class. . .the options will never get better.